"u know. that was again the sweetest thing that ever happend to me. and on the other hand, it was the most weird in guy's stuff i've ever had.
i am so fuckin stuck with u raoul. was it me or u to wait for 2 years texting and texting again. i was happy with u as happy as i could be. unaviable. yeah. i am. and i had no time to change that. i am not like u. i didnt even had the time to explain, to find trust. for me everything, once it started, happend to fast. i don't know why u do not understand that, why it is so impossible for u to understand that.
lately i didnt figure what i've done wrong again, cuz as beautiful, handsome, intelligen, sexy and fuckin funny u are, as weird and fast changing u are.
i miss u. i missed u all along. and i know u won't believe that, only because ur different than me.
and i dont know what to do, what u expect, what u wish and long for. this is all chaos to me. and i do not have the slightest idea what the next step should be, or if i do u a real favour by not doing anything anymore.
all of this seems so full of missunderstandings, and missinterpretation (on both sides)..
i don't know. i am no master in this kinda thing, not even a student. i miss u. yesterday i felt asleep with ur cheesy and most wonderful postcard u made for me. i really don't know what to do.
oh and u looked good tonight. as usual."